Guess who is back?

I'm back. yes for real.

hahaha.

well mum is kind enough to give me back what belongs to meeeee.

i will update more. definitely. just got to wait. first.. i got to update alot of stuffs. one of which is of course my itunes.

chiao

and you began to wonder...

it's one of those days that even your favourite comedian was not making you laugh even when she was the funniest.

been a tiring day for me. i don't really know what's the cause of it but maybe it's the traveling. but it's not like i have not traveled from one corner of this puny island to another. you know what i mean?

ohwell.

the only thing that makes my spirit a lil higher was getting wet in the rain. it's been a while since i have touch the rain. the wonder rain can do. =)

and ya, i have been smiling to this cute lil friend of mine every time i look at it. cos it's the ONLY thing that was smiling at me.
amazing how my new best friend doesn't have any feelings but yet knows how i feel.

Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

my rock star

actually i was blogging about a lot of nonsensical stuff which i seriously thought it's not necessary to blog about. and I even asked bear to blog for me cos i was running out of ideas.

but then again, i just go for the easiest way to save all the fuss.

I'm gonna just post my most favoourritteeeee mtv from my one and only RATU ROCK - ELLA.
she's my idol since i was a kindergarden lamb.

and her new album's out. another collection to add. i just can't wait.
and with her new short haircut. which to my disappointment cos i just loooooveee her long black hair.

anyways, this is quite an old song. from her last year's album.
featuring my fav rock band from m'sia too, SPIDER.

muacks.

the Nightmare

so i woke up with the coldest sweat yest morn at five. the nightmare (which i totally can't remember what it was all about but knew it was the scariest of all scari-ness) made me ill. believe this, TILL NOW.

and i couldn't sleep back. not till five the next morn, which is today's morning. and when i slept at five just now, i was woken up with the sound of the door banging at nine. i have no idea who it was. like wtf. things just getting better aren't they?

and my lovely mum just don't quite understand what i'm going thru as she keep on making a big fuss about all the things i was doing.

oh well. nothing is to talk bout.





so chiao.

the sulking queen

did you read today's newspaper? bout how this husband who sulked big time with his wife end up being killed?

oh dear.

so lovers out there (the strings attached or not attached ones), WHENEVER your love sulk better.. BETTER layan them. or you will regret not doing so.

=)

so right now, i need to layan bear cos you know, Big kidssss just love to sulk.



ps- imsosearchingforajobnow

Bear Mee...

i just need you to give me a'lil patience.
i want to share every thing. yes i do.

but it needs time. just a minute or two.

give me your lil patience.

oh my bloody phone

was just planning to blog about how happy i am to get my repaired phone back.
but just a few minutes ago, i had to call nokia to ask what did they really do to my phone cos now it's not working anymore! again.


like WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK!?

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yesterday was.. v'day.
celebrate it with my bear of cost.

and for the FIRST TIME of our five months together, she made me feel helplessly helpless.
hehehehee.

ok la, not the first time. but you know.. when you just happen to be really helpless helpless. damn la, i dunno how to explain.

anyway, i blog another time.

adios adios.

Sleepy head

slept at one. woke up at six.
sleepy?
not yet. read - NOT YET.

there is not much of a thing to blog. except that i wanna congrats Rudy, my kuzin for doin well for his O level. yeay!

and erm...

ok that's all folks!



i miss you




chiaosss

when she's all yours...

there was no breakfast for me today.
but i was full the moment i stepped outside your house.
we both know we are not the champion swimmers.
but we took the bet and jump off to the ocean.

did we dive in?
but wait, did the water even touch our skin?

and i keep telling you i have lost.
but don't you baby think I'm the real winner?
well it is just that you're not here for dinner.

and we were screaming
when we indulge ourselves while drowning
i almost thought that I'm dying

in your arms.


it is like i can't seems to breathe
when you were underneath

then you found the treasure
while i have my pleasure.

you were on top of my mountain.
while I'm on top of yours.

we reached the highest peak in the universe.


in the same ocean.
with the same reason.





:)

chiao.

Happy Birthday

well. i have turned 19 today.
nothing to be biggie bout it. i'm just a year old which means..... i got to be less childish already. and that suckssss...

hahahaa.

well here are some of the gifts that i just got to upload and show it to the rest of the world cos it is so special! seriously.

the first one is of cost..
CAKE

handmade by Lina and Bear.

CARD

made by sandy aka squirrely zebra and cool nerdie penguin aka shangz

CDs

by all of them.

SHIRT

by bear

TARTS

CHOCS...

ARM REST

and CHOCS againby sister

and i'm soo loving all of them. really.
and ya the bouquet of ferror roches, if any of you guys wants to order it for a cheap price tell me. sis is making it for v day.

yea.






chiao

that piece of art...

You always see in the movie how the actor being swooped off from the ground by the beauty of the actress while she sashay from the stairs or just walk towards him elegantly etc, etc…

And I absolutely witness that scene real life just now.

Oh.My.God

And at that very second I just couldn’t do anything but to smile to myself, foolishly. Ok, no further comment.

Well, back to reality. I went to met Bear and we went around Singapore before she starts her tuition at 3.

Now my spirit is pretty high up maybe cos I have not met her for a period of time that is long enough for me to miss her.. Oh whatever.

And I’m totally missing my queens.

I swear I do.

Chiao.

"Lovesick," the doc said

Well yes. I have been sick on and off. Especially my giddiness and right now my throat badly hurts I can’t even seem to be able to swallow even the smallest molecule ever. And what did doctor said. “Oh you don’t have to worry. You are just LOVESICK.”

...

ok, the REAL reason why I came online specifically because I want to get things straight with this girl who used to be our friend. Another Nisha issue? Nope. This is worse.

A hypocrite.

I still remember VIVIDLY how emo you were when school was to end. Your blog entries was full of “I won’t forgets” and “you guys make my day!”

And to see what is really happening now, who is being disgusting here?

And what right do you have to show prejudice towards MY bear? (Note- not THE)

And who gives a bloody shit about not being able to read your blog which is “open to invited readers only”


Seriously **r**, get a life.
Grow. Up.





Chiao.

the "fight"

it was bullshit.

and no. none of the queens trying to prove any shit. GET THIS STRAIGHT.
humans make mistake. we were childish back then.

so just get over it, queens.

let's not be bothered over this kind of issue. she have a own life and we have ours. maybe when one one day our path cross again, maybe... MAYBE things will change. but for now, it will be like this.

right, Nisha?

anyway, from the bottom of my heart, i apologized. my mistake. to discriminate you with no reason.

and here's the classic for my queens.
how can i not laugh at it.



chiao LADIES

ok, i just have to blog

and yes i'm bored again. i'm actually waiting for my nephew's tuition to end so i can have my late dinner. well actually, i'm not hungry you know but i have to cos' someone will be mad with me.

anyways, i so need to blog about this thing that is goin thru my head. but the prob is, i have no idea which one to start with. hmmm, i'm actually in a mood to do poem but then again my poem talent is getting all so rusty. hahaha, was just practicing it with my Baby Bear just now. hahahaa..

i miss you.

oh damn. i continue after this. my lil devil just done with tuition.

no chiaos. cos i'm so gonna be right back

i'm bored, BABY

so my saturday nite is to stay at home with a bunch of dvds to be watch. which one? I'm not quite sure which one just yet. I'm happy enough right now bloggin my ass off.

good news came from cupcake - SHE's not leavin this island. heheheee.

bad news came from me - I'm dead bored.

~

cut the crap.

~

actually it has been awhile since i last wrote a poem. damn.

~

what i actually need right now is to actually know what i got to do.




chiao chiao

and i'm finally back

first entry in the year 2007.

god, its been a VERY long time. actually i have a lot of things to blog about, but as you know i am kinda in a sick mood so maybe the next time?

actually i am kinda bored now. no one is online. am only chatting with my sister. oh well what to do. life is suckie.

and rite now, i better watch my unfinished taiwan drama.

chiao.

and im leaving

well one last entry before i get my ass in the car to be driven away from this island.
first time ever my heart felt sooo heavy to step out of my house. mayb someone or somethin is holdin me back. anyway, sis bought a new phone and she is askin me to upload stuff in her new phone. tht is the ONLY reason why i am able to use my lappie now. hehehee..

stuff have alrdy been packed. MEDs and JACKETS too.
oh ya, got my pay just now. went down to office with K.H.
and i sense tht mr. karim is not really tht happy with me.
sorry boss.

anyway, before its too late i better wish everyone out there MERRY XMAS!

mum is still not back home yet. so i need to be mum sis and daughter all at one time now.

gifts are on the way...


suckiness.


imissyou.

its the blue on monday

omg omg omg... yest was the most blue-est monday i ever had in my entire... err.. life i guess. if only im still a sec skol kid, i wld hv said LIFE SUCKS. work esp.

and it was raining heavily. and like i told sandy, you can literally see the rain falling from the sky. hahahahaa..

april said i shld try to be less annoying as she sense tht i was the one who started the lil fight. heheheheee. which is true actually.
so yea i will try to be less annoyin and irritating to the rest except for cuppie herself. hahahaha.

i think im laughin to much. anyways, right now im waiting for the rain to cool down before i start walkin to the bustop. i dont really wish the rain to stop but at the same time i do need the SUN to brighten up my day.

ireallymissyou.


chiao.

second day. second customer.

second day working at universal group asset pte ltd co. a very hi-end company actually. and for gawd sake, its at the 43rd floor. the view, the whole singapore except tht u will b block alil. anyways, april just started working today. interview for less than 10mins and she got the job. straight away. she stole my jacket and so i got to frostbites here and there.

nothing much else happen. just tht i hope the so called challenging task being given to me will make me less bored callin all those idiot who dont even show any sympathy and want to spend their 45mins to come down for the preview of our lifestyle club. they even got a gift to walk away! where's the kiase and kiasu singaporean!?

and i need to do something now. something INTERESTING.
any idea?

when

That most beautiful was depicted on your lips
Had not been seen by me this smile of yours before

all the colored that were promises...
has loved that was given faded away

dont let me be all alone
dont let your heart being conquered
dont let me standing here
waiting with no one

just dont let go of Your hands embrace
and let everything passed by
like as if our feelings have been forgotten
when we had our first kissed

Overcast sky when saying
We ought to be still loving


a lovely song.
just cant get it out of my head.



when you hurt the one you love the most