Selamat Hari Raya

hari raya is here. once again.
family gathering. alot of foods. ya alot of them. traditional clothes. colours of them. i mean u will see a few rainbows here n there. one of the few things i like bout hari raya. the traditional clothes. this year my family decided to have light blue as our main colour. well i was hopin that we will wear white but ohwell mayb next year.

hari raya this year brings a different light in my life.
unlike the previous years, i dun feel the excitiement of it. i dun feel that i can celebrate it with all the happiness in this world. there are a few reason but the first in my list is the missin part of me.
its not even a year since my granny left us.
now both parents are orphan.
n im left with no grandparents.
how much i miss them.
as time fly.
the moment she took her last breath, i regret the one thing.
how i wish i cld tell her i love her. how i wish i can tell all my granparents how i much i love them.
n in this very special day, celebrating without her, regretting the things in the past, wont allow me to smile.
but life has to go on.
the only thing that i cld do now is to pray for her, n give my best to fulfill her last wish.

i love u granny. i love all my grandparents.

n to all my muslims frens, selamat hari raya.
forgive me from top to toe.
maaf zahir dan batin.

chiao.