I'm Holding On To Something That Used To Be There Hoping It Will Come Back, Knowing It Won't

Thursday, June 29, 2006

SSssupemmaannnn....



when down to plaza sing. to watch Superman Returns with cuppycake.

its a.... pretty disappointing movie i shall say.
but not to the point tht i regret watchin it. just tht the plot is too... bland.
kate bosworth acted as lois lane was ... a bleh never die no matter what.
brandon routh acted as the man of steel was justice able.
lex lurthor wasnt acting all so cool and mean guy who have tht lil kind in his heart. he was cute in a way.
there was this beech who keep makes me laugh. shes my fav beech according to cuppycake. Kitty Kowalski.
and then there was....... tristan lake leabu acted as jason white who is ACTUALLY.. jason kent. get the picture?
hes the superboy!!!

superman has a SON!
hahaha..
and lois lane is .. STUPID this time ard. like seriously.



and i believe there is a sequel. in 2009.
hopefully superboy and superman can fly together together.
and lois lane is cleverer.


ps- for the real story on SUPERMAN RETURNS check out cuppycake webbie.
=)




chiao

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

when its time

there are times when you dont know what to do..

your hearts want you to study while your brains want you to take a rest and reminisce? or vice versa...

well, im caught in between.

i just feel like bloggin bout this.

gonna get back to my notes.


chiao

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

ten days ago

gawd, been too busy with my prjts tht i hv no time to update my blog.
thank gawd im left with only mmr ppt which we got to present this thurs. and the burden will be lighter i suppose; as nuruls back from umrah. =)

well we celebrate both shanthis and badzs bdae yest. all of us who watch the videos for the both of them truly enjoy it. both of them love it. thats the most important thing.

i shall say tht everythin is goin smooth. yeah, a smooth sail when u suddenly realise tht its not smooth at all.

with a few months left, our advanced diplm course will end.
in a very short period of time, the things tht we all been thru.
good and bad, sad and happy.
this is wat makes our friendship very special to me.

i get very emotional thinkin bout it.
just like how badz describe it, i want to freeze time.
i want it badly cos its strange how time flies.

and ya, badz told me her wish when she blow her cake candles.
tht is sweet of u darl.
=)

im getting too emotional.like seriously.
and i wonder how come only now i realise tht im an emo kid?
haha..

im currently stuck with four songs. in which all four make me wanna cry. i know, im a wierd emo kid. but i cant help it.

and and and...
i make a stand.

i dun care if its right or wrong, i just love you more.



ps- gonna change my blogskin soon. getting tired of it alrdy.






chiao.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

worldy cup

half time. pretty disappointed with england. dunnoe wassup with therry and lampard. not doin their job pretty well. and owen seems tht he's slacking, just kickin the ball ard. only beckham seems good. its been a while since i last saw him good on the field. haha... and hes damn hot in tht white jersey. yummy.

bro is watching the match noisily as if hes the manager or something. same with me but im more down. dad is making fun of him. haha... world cup is bondin time. two england supporter with one brazil fanatic.


lalala....

england england englandd......!!!


chiao.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

have you ever thot

Have you realize that you have just let that one cherished moment with your chums gone? And the next thing you know, you wont be able to live for that moment again? I still remember back in sec skol, when queens used to record the moments we have together. Like me and khai having cat fights almost every single day, fahm with her unique attitude, shruts posing as a model, mabel pretending to b a cute wannabe, mun flaunting her beauty, naz with her vocal… And it goes on and on. Those were the days.

So when you in your room, alone, reminiscing bout this, do you somehow feel the tears in your cheek? Have you ever thought whether its tears of joy or just that you wish you can turn back time and have that very instant back?

Will this make us regret fill with guiltiness? Or content and overjoyed?

Whatever it is, even if you drown the whole Singapore with your tears, you just cant turn back time.

So what are you gonna do about it? I asked myself.

I can try to cherish every moment. But is that possible?

Time is running. Are we running after it? Or just walking?

Soon, 2006 will be history. We will be moving.

Now we are confuse whether to continue enjoying our life or just simple start to capture the moments we are left with.

I dont want to live always looking back. Nor do I want to live looking only at the future. I want to live at this very moment. And to be on cloud nine.

Today is a pretty extraordinary day for me. So, I want today to be like every other day.



chiao

Monday, June 05, 2006

im not cranky la.

i dun really know how to describe tday. we all went to ps together.

well, after spending like two hours? in spotlight, i still hv no idea wat to do for my pr creative part. damn shit.

i dunnoe how am i suppose to feel towards certain things.

cos i believe tht the environment im in change what i think and feel.
but at the same time i dun want to be tht person who is mean or cold hearted.

i just wonder if chances were given the second time, will everythin be back to normal?
will there people who get upset and feel tht they are being left alone?

is it a choice that we can make?
or we want to as we want to show tht we are being selfish?


i just wonder...



ps- im tired and sick on how ive been treated at home.
like serious.




not goin to skol tmr.

need to finish up wat got to be done.





chiao

Thursday, June 01, 2006

happy 6th birthday khimar

1st june 2000
6.47pm

me n the rest were waiting at the labor intensive ward for almost an hour. then suddenly, we saw the nurse. with a baby. its my nephew. with the eyes wide open, he look so innocent. the doctor came pushing my sis who is lying, with sleepy eyes. the doctor turn n asked us, have u all look at tht lil monster?

six years later, tht lil adorable monster now turn to a cute devil.

when i reached home, i saw tht lil devil playin his tony hanks skateboard game in his ps2. tht grown up lil devil.

being with him for six years, he have taught me alot of things tht is not possible before. i hv never seen for myself how an only child grow up. being the pampered spoilt child, he gets watever he wants. from the grandparents and also the parents of cost. cos of him, i learn tht i love kids. they are the most adorable creature and monster and witches alive. he taught me what is the meaning of childs play all over again. and also, kids love.


so to my lil evil, happy 6th birthday.




i love my khimar hawari.



=)



and to my beloves frans, happy birthday too.
muacks






back to js now. fuck.








chiao.