outin with muneera

skol with paramasivam(hes my lecturer for advertising) was boring as usual. haiss....
met with my queens at rp. have some contest or somethin. n dhana(is that how u spell his name?) sang w/o mun(she was late).
we didnt see our queen of damned till the very last min.

mun was suppose to send me the pics we took at rp but that idiot is not online. bitch.

then we(only me n mun cos the shruts n fahm still hv skol) headed down to far east.
mun promised that she will come back next week, as she will splurge her hari raya money on the stuffs she wanna buy. tops, belt, make ups, earrings, tops, tops, tops n more tops...hahahaha..n she ask me to STOP wearin t-shirts. wassup with that?!
we break fast there too. hehehehee...
(mun force me to try this mascara. it looks okay la but it didnt end there. she put this stupid liquid foundation on my face! freak u bitch. but i love my queen of beauty even when she so damn freakin thin now.)

went to little india. met priyanka (is that the rite spellin? sorry sexy if i spell ur name wrongly hehehe..) they wanna buy some henna at faus shop. n i bought ice creeaammmm! yummy. its been awhile i have not taste this sensational one. hehehee...

n i realli wonder wat is this world comin to.
love is so cruel probably one wrong word can make a frenship sinks.
love is malicious that u can break ones hart.
love is the little devil that makes u wanna do all the stuff for the one no matter wat it is.
love is a lil forlorn that u can only love the one in the dark.
but love is so beautiful cos love is love.

wat am i talkin?
ohwell.

chiao.

life is an awful song

i was not in the mood to get up n get ready for skol as usual.
skol was ok. same goes to da lecturer.
badz, was not ok.
she was bein a joker.
me n jolyn had a grt laugh at the end of the day. realli.

went to heeren to meet someone but end up me searching for my anime soundtrack alone.
spent two hours in hmv. found some pretty cool songs.
but not the anime soundtrack that im lookin for.
theres hellsing, monster to name a few but not the one that im searching for.

ohwell
came back home kinda earl.
n was welcomed by news that make me numb.
till now.

so much for my happy "day"

my day begins with me havin my pre dawn meal at bloody four am. yes four am. *yawn...
this have me so zombified in skol. but the news i got after skol murder the zombie in me. wahahaha....
bro in law picks me up from skol. the bike dat travels on an ave of 100km/h in the highway make me smile senilely. wahahaha..
the last time i rode a bike was last year. LAST YEAR.
i reach my sis office which in approximately like fifteen mins.
get the stuff n hop in to that black panther.
yippee...

oh yea. i have just watched siti nurhaliza concert in royal albert hall, LONDON.
this last malay woman standin on earth reallli make me glue to the tv screen for damn two hours long.
i was personified. honestly.
her strong vocal keeps everyone on the floor still.
i wonder how she can maintain everythin for dat long.
n the songs that realli make me salute her is "get here", "seindah biasa", "purnama rindu", "kau kekasih"
she is the first malaysian singer to ever had a concert in that hall of fame.
i wonder wen is singapore singer is gonna have their concert held there?
if it took siti ten years before she can even step there, how long will it take for singapore's singer to stand at that stage?
twenty? thirty? fifty?
letsjust wait n see.
mayb u dun even need that decade to have any singaporean standin there. cos mayb we only need jus a few years.
mayb april hoon boon teng's name will appear to b the first singapore singer to have a concert there. or shurthi kumar. or nazerethu begum. or who ever else la..

watever it is. as wat siti said. it all started with a dream.....

missing game

well ive not post any entry for a quite a while. hmm.. exams have ended last fri. n i juz got to realise dat hari raya is comin. in ten more days. oh my gawwd.
newae this year celebraation brings a diff meanin to me. n probably to my whole family. will talk bout it more wen hari raya is here. =)

there are four diff person im missin un my life rite now.
the first one is my my bro.
saw his pic wen he was i dunnoe, 9 10?
he was holdin his sis hand who looks like three or four years old. ok the sis is me.
me n my bro always play this silence game since we were young.
but last fri, he told somethin i least expected it.
soemthing that i thot will never came out form his mouth.
he talks to me out LOVE.
(he was cryin earlier on cos of some problems)
bro, i appreciate it.
thanks.

the second person who im missin is someone who i regret not bein able to say how much i love her. n now i get remind of her everytime i touch my newly painted wall. my granny. the last piece of dollar she gave to me, i decided to use it to paint my room. so i will be able to remember her 24/7.
how much i miss her.
love u granny.

the third person who i miss is someone who came to my dreams this few days. i shld thank gawf for bring u to my life but for fallin for u? i dunnoe.
wat i noe is that, wen u smile my whole life jus brightens up.
thats a magic that ur smile bring to my world.

last but not least i miss someone who i had never missed before in my entire life.
i saw her comin. then i saw the all so familiar eyes.
the i realise who dat person is.
the eyes that i have not seen for ages.
remind me that im lost in an unknown world.
gawwd. now i realise how much i miss MYSELF...

haze of love

Its four o clock in the morning

Or maybe its five

I think Im alive

And I think Ill survive

But I cant cut through this haze of life

this haze of mine

haze of love

singin in the rain

hahaha....ok i have a slight flu thanks to the rain..
hehehe...
drenched myself with the acid.
i was hopin that im one of the kid in ffvii when they can cure this sickness called geostigma by standin in the rain. while for my case its a feelin. i was hopin that my feelings can b washed away..

ohwell now here i am once again sittin infront of my lappie.
doin nothin.
hv no mood to mug for my last paper. tpsw.
damn.
im a real hardcore slacker.

chiao.

final fantasy

last nite. didnt come online. didnt update my blog. didnt even check my mails. i was layin on my bed ever since i reach home. then i decided to grab one of my anime dvd n play it. final fantasy VII advent children. one of my fav. so far la..haha. so i watch it. took me bout an hour before i decide to watch my all time fav- shaman king. from the first eps to fiftythree. can u believe it?! hahahaa..ok im goin all insane. i noe i noe..

ohwell after watchin all this anime craze heres somethin for myself. =)

wen u walk towards me
my hart beat faster
wen u smile at me
my hart went wild
wen u whisper my name
thats wen i noe

im in love with u
my samara..

hehehehehe..

its just another bad day

well i dun have to think that im gonna havea bad da ahead of me. i dun have to feel it. cos it will ultimately happen. my bad day. i think crankiness have gotten me. qdn of cost not only that exams too. haiss.....
still here sittin infront of my lappie cant concentrate once again. i cant use my time absorbing the notes i type. been spendin my time playin online games, bloggin(three entries in a day!), listenin to music, i do all this except to STUDY. damn.
wats happenin to me?
wheres that pinkrocker spirit i was before?
sadly i dunnoe...
jus losin it..
damn..
ohwell..

chiao for now

first hari raya song on air

alrite jus a couple of mins ago,i heard the first hari raya song on air.
u noe wat this mean, it means that hari raya is on the way!
dun realli welcome it. thats da sad thing. =(

n u noe i've been tryin to study since jus now, but yea. nothins in.
sick bitch i am.


chiao.

still stuck with tdmc

great, its alrdy 630 in the morn and im still up here with only four qns done for my tdmc. wat the hell is happening to me?! arghh...
reduction of my headache is something i thot will make me more focus on my studies but NO! arghh....this can be name nightmares before exams.

n by the way, newae heard the song suddenly i see from K T Tunstall?
hmm tell me bout it will ya.
this is for now.

chiao.

its a cold day

its been raining since morn. since i woke up for my sahur. some thing happened last nite that had made me had a sleepless nite n it cost me a headache in the afternoon. damn. and as usual i cld not concentrate on my TDMC in which the exam is this tues. been listenin to songs, sad songs to turn the table round- qouted from the song "bad day". well i AM in one way having a bad day. =( cos im still stuck with only three qns since jus now. hais.... two more to go.

n well i simply have nothin to update bout.


chiao.

not so fine but yea, its a fine day

alrite, i've been tryin to blog since eight but was caught up with some stuff. like EXAMS. TDMC to b exact. haiss..i guess its da most toughest one module im doin now. n i mean NOW. there is more to come. damn...

todae, the start of day is kinda shitty. thanks to my old lady. she gets on my nerves this few days. but things change of seein familiar faces like, joe, florrie, mark, buddy, cheesecake n cupcake. =)


i realised somethin.
theres no rule in love, sayin that u cant love someone who dun or cant love u back.

u will only feel the switness of love wen love has been cruel towards u.
n now i somehow realise that i feel guilty feelin guilty feelin "it"..

here i am once again

the thot of switchin my lappie after my breafast was not accomplished as i decided to lay down n listen to "berhenti berharap" on the radio. a song that had lighten up my spirit (i guess) in the morn as i was feelin a'lil cranky last nite..oh gawwd wats new?

last nite, had a couple of conversation bout The Stuff. n i realised something. i cant run away from the feelin. i cant deny its existence. and as cupcake said- its ok to b wrong.. n shruts words-its ur feelins..u cant stop it.
ya i cant stop it n yes sometimes its gd to b wrong.
mayb somehow i will let my feelins show but for now, no.
i wont tell or hint anythin to the soul.
i guess i shld jus keep playin this game n see how far this feelin last.

cos i cant afford to lose a frenship. its too precious for me to let it go..

muneera

met naz. of cost she was late. haisss..but anyway, thanks. thanks for not advising me bout that stuff. i realli appreciate it. =)
n make sure u wear that lense wen u meet me again. hehehee..


i saw my queen of beauty's blog todae n i realise how much i wanna hug her. honestly. she was there wen i need someone, jus like the rest. she noes how to cool me down wen my tempers flare. her beautiful smile always make my day brighter. n i jus miss her so much. jus like the others. i miss her. five years of knowin her is like i've known her since i was five.

muneera, all i want you to do is smile.
cos ur smile make this world a better plc to live in.
i wanna u to be happy gal.
jus like how u make me happy bein ur queen.

in the break of dawn two

hahaha..here i am, after having my breakfast at 430, blogging. gotta continue with my sbs. been slackin alot. gee..so hows my new skin? pretty rockish. i noe, im the pinkrocker remember. well too bad theres no hot pink in here.=(
but i still in love with it. its so...me i guess..heehe

alrite gtg. sbs is waitin for me.. eww... hahaha..



n ya.. remember.
in a corner of the world, there will be this one person who will be so happy to see you happy.
cos' you know why. that person is so in love with - you. =)

chiao.

a quiz

my cupcake hmm....want me to this quiz. cant disappoint my cupckae rite..so here it goes.... =)

ten years ago..
i was a pri one kid. was the klas chairman.. =)
i was the quietest, the tallest, the teachers pet. =)

five years ago..
had a crush with my klasmate..
had a gang fight jus outside my skol. then we end up bein frens. haha.. had my first hp. sony ericsson. it was a red flip phone. was showin it off to everyone. hehehe..
took my PSLE
as expected i didnt realli do pretty well.
n got my arse to bukit view sec.
bukit view ure so dear
we have learn to give our best~

one year ago..
my big O. a year i can never erase it in my hart. alot of things happen. frenship in thin line, the last bdaes sabo, the songs, the camera, the fights, the late calls, the bukit view idol, sarah n mel, ms zan, gan n rose, the nite walk, etc to many to mention n i dun wanna bring tears to my eyes..

yesterday..
had my hmc paper..

five snacks i enjoy..
chocolate is a snack rite..ice cream too rite. hehe..ok lets see. haagen daz ice cream, any kind of chocolate, chupa chup lollies- they are the best! chachos bbq flavour chips n chewin gum. hehe

five songs i know all the words..
bizarre love triangle, berhenti berharap, sebuah kisah klasik, follow me, thats why n the list goes on... =)

five things i do with a 100 million dollars..
shop, travel ard the world, buy an island, donate to charities, fan myself with the remainin money..

five places I would run away to..
my sis plc, any clean toilets, my room, switzerland, united kingdom

five things I would never wear..
ur socks, ur undies, ur bras esp my sis n my old ladys one, condoms, briefs

five favourite tv shows..
my own shows hahaha.., friends, the oc, i cant remember la.

five bad habits..
smoking, slping, scaring my angel, messin up my room n .....itsw a secret.

five biggest joys..
my queens, my cakes, my buddy n my squirrel, my nephew, my family.

five favourite toy...
my miniature skateboards- since pri 5. playstation, my nephews toys inclds my fav- walkie talkie, my lappie, dildo- sad thing i dun hv one.

five fictional characters I would date..
harry potter, malfroy, ron- all three from the harry potter series, err..i dunnoe who else

five people I tag to do this..
anyone who i will tag after this quiz.

seven things you plan to do before you die..
f*** my husband real hard, travel ard the world with my hot pink volkswagen, shop with my frens till dawn, hv a huneymoon for two months, b who i wanna b, hv childrens, hv a will.

seven things I can do..
irritate my frens, mess up my room, slp, eat, play music, talk on the phone till seven, paint my room

seven celebrity crushes...
ADAM BRODY, rupert grint, that guy from eiffel im in love, hans isacc, aston krutcher, takeshi n this guy i dunnoe his name in one of the chi movie. =)

Seven often repeated words..
F***, bitch, oh my gawwd, realli?, damn, huh?, wtf

seven physical traits I look for in the opposite..
a smile that melts my hart, cool hairstyle but simple will do, nice set of teeth, tall, lovely eyes, nice bod, hands that i will like to hold.

seven tags to go to..
huh?!

three names I go by..
rizz, mawar, bitch

three screen names you've had..
pinkrocker, no!war, miahrizah

three physical things you like about yourself..
i leave this one out. =)

three physical things you DONT like about yourself..
everythin that is not mention abv.

three parts of your heritage..
i dunnoe.

three things things that scare you...
samara gettin mad with me, midnitescary movie, lookin at myself in the mirror esp int he middle of the nite..wahahaha

three drinks..
ice peach tea, plain water i suppose, milky!

three of your everyday essentials
lappie, bra, black eyeliner.

three things you're wearing right now
tee, pink boxer hehehehee n my bra

three of my favourrite movies..
honey, a walk to remember, tentang dia

two truths and a lie..
u're sexy n hot. im not! hahahahahaaa..

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you..
lovely eyes, swit smile, nice banana..hahaha..kiddin kiddin. hmm..nice bod

three careers you're considering/have considered..
producer, songwriter, housewife

three ways that you're stereotypically a girl..
damn this is tough..hmm the love of HOTPINK, my *cough* sensitiveness n ... ..Im A GAL la..wat else to say?

three people I would like to see take this quiz right now...
you you you..wahahahahaha

atlast im done with this quiz. i have to re do this quiz cos i think i ass ssee deen tallly delete it.

in the break of dawn..

every time i think of you
i get a shock right through into a bolt of blue~

was listenin to my fav song. n decide to blog..
todae is our first paper - hmc..
hope everythin will be under control..
yea..
missing evryone badly so im quite excited..
n gonna meet up with florrie n gang at queenstown station. something to look forward..
its seem like i didnt meet them for ages. gawd damn i miss them real bad. =)

well i better go back n study before i start to nonsense stuff out.
hahaa..

every time i see you falling
i get down on my knees and pray
i'm waiting for that final moment
you'll say the words that i can't say~

oh my gawwd,i didnt fast todae

my head was spinnin but i gotta get out of my house to study with ernie. we were suppose to study together at the nat lib. damn so i break my fast during lunch time. n yea u guess it rite. we studied for like half an hour before we decided to full our empty tummy. =)
most of thetime we spent together are talkin. talk talk talk talk talk....
then we met ernies fren at raffles hos. shes a bully to ernie. hehehe..ernie, u deserve it..
then we decided to study again n ya we did. for like half an hour again. =)
well, atleast we study rite..
n ya i wanna thank her for ...well u noe wat i mean.
my big sis florrie too.

now, lets jus wait for time to tell...
=)

3rd day of fasting month

damn. todae feel so damn shitty. argghhh.. n i dun think its because im pmsin or its because of the fasting month. i guess its because..i dunnoe. too much things to think bout i guess. ohwell i need to set it all aside. my exams are here. its way much more impt. yea exams. but todae, i have not even touch my book yet n its like wat 2pm! argghhhhh.....i cant even use the f word.. arghhhhhhh..ohwell.. b back tonite. gtg. pray for me ya.

rohaizad

todae i had kebab for my break fast. its superb. yea. marvellous..

oh well...wen i was at jurong buyin stuff for break fast, something that is worse than any nightmares before christmas or hari raya strike me..its somethin i can Never thot will ever happen..
i shld have seen it comin..shld have.. the smile that makes my hart go wild few years back..n now im seein that smile again. it broke my hart literally. but at the same time, i was fallin for it AGAIN...

now, my phone rang n i dun even dare to pick up da phone. i dun want history to repeat itself. i dun wish to give it another chance. no i dun. i dun wanna make a fool out of myself n fall at the same spot because of u.

i dun wanna fall in love with u again rohaizad..not again..

cos of u, i detest da juniors.
we fought outside westmall.
n cos of u, i now realise how stupid i was to fall for u.

im not gonna make that same mistake again. eventhough ur smile jus keep meltin my hart.

2nd day of fasting month

last nite, i have revealed da darkest secret ever. khehehekhe...i was kinda scared at first tellin someone but i manage to spill it out. n well that person ask me to do somethin dat i never think i cld do. but well i did da impossible. da outcome was kinda negative but im glad i did it. ohwell i wont wanna reveal MY darkest secret here. oh well ok its not realli da darkest la but hahaha..ohwell.

i vacuum n mop todae. n i have da freakin back ache AGAIN. arghh..n i said da f word. god forgive me..pls..i didnt mean it. please forgive this soul..

i have a talk with my sis last nite. she told me to respect ramadhan n wear baju kurung to skol. i was like- sis u gotta b kiddin me...doesnt mean She wear baju kurung to work i need to wear them to go to skol rite..but to think bout it, i think i SHLD respect ramadhan but i need to think twice before wearin it..wahahahaa..

ohwell out i go..muacks to all

1st day of fastin month

well well... first day of fasting month. never realli welcome it ever since i noe some stuff gets on my nerves this whole fasting month. n ya no more of the f word make it even more worse. haiss..but i this fastin month is da only month im kinda patient.
ohwell slpt at twelve n had to wake up at 4.30 damnation. n i cant realli slp cos i was singin more than words like a zillion times.
i was only be able to slp after my morn pray. n woke up to my phone ringin at eleven. damn. i feel tired. n slpy. but i gotta do alot of stuff. vacuum da house which my nephew decided to bring it down. n my room too. finally its done.still in a mess but i dun realli mind dat little mess. i was like a zombie alrdy wen i went to fetch my nephew from skol. my head was kinda spinnin. ohwell i jus have to hold on for another tow hours beofre i can break my fast. lookin forward to it. n i keep on singin more than words..heheheee...so in love with dat song. realli. oh my gawwd..

n yea yest i watched corpse bride with ym darling cheesecake. gosh, cant remember da last time i watch a movie with her..hehehe..whether is it monster in law or mr n mrs smith.

n im so missin my cupcake. yea seriously missin her man...esp da hugs..khehekhehekhehekhe..my cupcake rule....i mean i rule nut she....ohwell ok she rule too..wahahaha..wat the f heaven am i talkin bout...i guess this is wat will happen to me ifi dun get hugs from her. hehehee

n ya. tmr my angel will b seventeen. my hammy too. mabel. happy birthday gals. muacks

study break now on...

todae was suppose to meet my gay partner to go for a cycle at ecp in da break of dawn but gotta change my plan. so headed to naz plc. slack there for a while before decided to get on her sis for a while. took a short ride before we end up in a playgrd wheres theres swing. yea...SWING...sat there for like one hr. talk...n talk...n we end up in a conclusion dat I need to go for some counsellin or some seminar. i think i shld. seriously. then we headed to westmall cos she gotta meet ayu. then theres this incident dat happen to us wen were waitin for ayu. wont wanna talk bout it but yea theres ambulance involve. hehehehe...

went to national lib. supposingly to study but nah...didnt. then lina, squirrel n meizhen came. we laugh like nonstop. then meizhen got a free hair cut at toni n guy for free. yea FREE hair cut...

then my gay partner came. at last. but i need to go home....as i forget to bring my med. so i need to go hoe n take my med. damn...da med make me drowsy...FUCK..

well....my squirrel cut her hair. she looks more femine. muacks babe!

im a sick biatch

damn..after spendin a nite at tan tock seng hos, i realise how much i miss their food. ok not exactly after havin da most disgusting porridge ever.

miss my lappie. seriously. bro had been using raping my lappie. damn. im gonna tell his gal bout it. n the police. hes goin to the jail. for fucking sure for raping my lappie. =(

of cost, i miss my buddies too. n to my gay partner. happy belated bdae. sorry i didnt make it for dat day dinner.

im a sick bitch.