still alife

it feels like i have not blog for years.
screw me.
ohwell, its a long weekend. for me.
with nothing to do, ive been keeping myself busy.
with wat?
i dunnoe.
didnt touch my lappie for three days.
didnt switch on my hp for three days.
i can amazed myself at times.
n u guys must b wonderin wat the hell i hv been doin?
don u wonder gals..

ohwell, got some of the presents alrdy.
not pretty excited bout it, but yes, definitely lovin all of it.
thanks for everything ya
u noe who u are.
=)


chiao.

*yawn*

Theres another world inside of me that you may never see,
Theres secrets in this life I cant hide.

another sleepless night.
wat can i do?
what make it worse is that im pretty sick.

my back is givin me signals tht it will attack me soon.
n my fever is in and out.
what the *toot* FUCK

so here i am blasting my stereo with three doors down songs.
- my old lady n dada went out just a few mins ago

So hold me when Im here,
Love me when Im wrong,
Hold me when Im scared,
And love me when Im gone.

lalalala~

if u think im high todae, u got it all wrong babe.
im all insane.

You wont always be there,
So love me when Im gone.

yest paper was er.... not realli tht ok.
i manage to complete the paper with one short and sweet paragraph for the last qns.
screw it all.

ohwell
its over.
the papers.

Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone

I need some times alone.
we need some times alone.



chiao

an evening with my angel

it has been a quite a ride for me since last nite. i dunnoe how to explain it. it simply just took the biggest part of me ever. you realli dun have any idea how the breakdown is all about, do you?
you and your own world..
ohwell.

and after last nite, thot when i get out of bed in the morn, i will realise tht it was just the worst nitemare ever. no, it was the reality afterall.

so, wasnt realli in my normal self. - ok, wats new??

but i was, when my angel drop by after skol. how sweet. she just went back home a few mins ago. n now, im alrdy missin her... come online, dear..
had some quality time together. we shld do it more often. with the whole queen.

u found my smile, shruts.
n now, its just to paste it back.
=)

chiao.

i'm just blind

a sleepness night
tears running dry
u break my heart
and you left it all shattered

but i dont blame you
no, i dont.
its mine.
my fault all this while..

i let it run wild
not knowing the consequences im facing.
how dumb can i get.. but dont you worry, i wont blame you.
i wont..

even when you did the most cruel thing ever.

and that is to do it on.. PURPOSE.

there is nothing i wanna tell you.
there is nothing i wanna hear from you.
it should just end here.

really.
cos' i cant take it anymore
and you wont understand anything at all.

to my squirrel - sandy, thanks for being there. you were just right there whenever i need someone.
to my angel - shurts, how can i ever thank you for everythin you had done for me. i thank gawd for giving me an angel like you.
i really wonder what my life is without the two of you. i really do.

to my sis, thanks for the gift.
a lovely watch it is.

exactly a week

todae journalism paper was.... fine. honestly, there is nothin for me to complain bout. especially for qns 7. wat are the ten qns u gonna ask mr bush when she he come to town n there is a news conference just before his flight back? even my five years old nephew can ask tht dude ten questions.

n if u guys still hv not know it yet, i have lost my handphone. yes my phone. yes, the same freakin phone my angel have. tht nokia phone.

ohwell, will be usin old lady's samsung phone. shes not even using it la. so she shld just donate it to me. yes me.

n n n n yes, i wanna wish my ernie happy bdae again- HAPPY BDAE BABE!! i hv alrdy wish her at the strike of midnite yest.err.. mayb a few mins late but i did Ok. n babe, u're old. i can see ur wrinkles.. beware.. hahahahaha..

oh, dun u tell me u still have no idea what is gonna happen in exactly a week countin down from todae? oh gawd, YOU are an ALIEN laa..
dun u noe that a queen will be reborn??
yes, a queen.
still hv no idea who is it??

hehehe..
u got it rite. its ME!


ps- u shld hv notice tht i have adopt a spidey pet a few days ago. her name is gothica. i love her as much as i love the color pink. yes i noe tht my spidey is not pink, cos was thinkin tht pink doesnt suit gothica. gothica is so red la. hehehe..
n she keep my blog fly-free. hehehee...
so lovin her..

chiao.

THE BEAUTY OF A SIN IS WHEN YOU ARE BEING PUNISHED FOR SOMEONE'S SIN

im not cranky

its a beautiful day todae. definitely it is. with the weather (before dusk), it remind me of the things tht i use to do. n ya i pretty much enjoy the things tht i do back then. so loving the weather.

n btw, i hv type this long entry before this but i dunnoe why i delete it n choose to type this instead n post it. mayb cos i dun wanna scare the hell out of me with unwanted tags. or watsoever tht is the similar to it. alrite, im blabbering.

actually todae is a smooth ride for me. not tht i was realli that cranky but its just tht somthin or shall i say someone did somethin. no no no. say something to me tht make me pissed. yeah. pissed. thts the word to describe my feelins. pissed.

ohwell, i wont wanna say much stuff bout it.

just tht, sometimes, somethings cant be understood by some ppl. its not tht they wont wanna understand it or wont wanna cares bout it, its just tht they dunnoe how it feels. they defintely dunnoe. cos if they know how it feels, they wont say those kind of things.
so my advise, stop givin "advises" tht in the first plc of all, u noe no shit bout it.

chiao.

green apple

had a short but sweet talk with my queen of beauty. only gawd knows how much i miss the queens. realli. four years of frenships (fahm is excluded- this alien came to my world since p.5.)have realli thot me wat frenship is all about. love u guys.

todae tvrp paper is er... i cant find any other word to find to replc "ok ok la" so yea. Ok ok la. the only disappoinment i hv is tht the qns tht i realli hope will come out didnt appear. =( ok actually there are two qns tht shld realli come out cos i memorise them. darn..
ohwell, i just hope tht i dun realli screwed up my paper tht bad.

n yeah, im so lovin' the weather when i was done with my paper.
~its raining, its pouring, the old man is snoring, blah blah...~

but now, i dun realli feel all tht gd. hais..
the cause of it is still da same.

PR is next on my exam list.
gotta crack my fragile brains again. arghhh...
looking forward to it? absolutely NO.

i need to watch desperate househusbands housewives...
cos im desperate too..
*snigger*

n i sudden like green apples.
werid?
i was born weird.


chiao

its the exam flu

been tryin to study but yes u got it, nothin goes in n stay in my brain cells. ok not nothin, just tht its not fully occupied by all the notes for my exams. sad isnt it? ohwell, wat to do.

actually there is nothin much to blog bout but im bloggin just to kill time while taking a "break" from the muggin. get it?

tmr is gonna be our tvrp paper. if u ask if im ready the answer will be NO.er... ok la. not realli ready. eventhou my notes are done like afew days back n i have enough of MCU, ENG,master control room, production process, producer, lighting, etc. i just cant get the rest of the info in. but i want my exams to end soon. how to end my exams if i dun want to sit for it. dumb me.

n yes, tmr im gonna get alot of hugs. something to look forward. im missing everyone. yes EVERYONE. n i know they miss me too. includin ppl whos havin their menses. they just cant resist me, can they?


n ya, can someone help me search for something?
im lookin for a smile.

im all out of love ~

chiao.

i've been burnt

alritey. first of all...
i wanna state here to all tht i hv burn my left thumb. it hurns like SHIT!
*sniff sniff..
ok ok ok.. its just a minor one. nothin serious but hey it still hurts u noe...
=(

well well, todae is the week where we got to chill at home n i take this advantage to go to da gym in the morn before studyin for three solid liquid hours. hehee..
and yes its still rain outside. damn... im so loving it esp listening to music tht... ohwell, then i got to help my old lady cook. if u guys still dunnoe, tmr is hari raya. hari raya korban. yeah yeah.. they got to slaughter YOU. hehe. i mean goats n cows.. for the poor.

n yes, two nights ago, if u guys are wondering about the next issue of GOSSIP, its out.
and the main story in it is - RIZ JOLIE have a new TATTOO!!!
actually, she was force to hv this tattoo on her left arm as she lost in a game of UNO. pretty sad but when we contact her she said tht, well, its all in the name of fun." we were just wondering if this is one of april aniston cruel game... hmm...













till then, our next issue of GOSSIP.
=)

chiao

the breakup and the abuse

after nine minutes this couple of the year were happy together, brad sandhya pitt and jennifer april aniston, the most romantic couple in history broke up. fans must be wondering why? what's the cause of it? is there a third party?

our team have "spied" on this couple and we have notice the cold shoulders they are giving to each other.

our resource wat told tht there is a third party tht is involve.
who can it be?
we tried to get sandhya pitt to comment but we could not get this rockstar. but, one of the rocker's best fren commented, "they are not happy together."
we tried to get the sensational princess who is famous for her chinese songs, april aniston. "we are not meant to be together. n no, we are not givin each others any kind of attitudes. we are just tryin to respect each others decision."

after we get this news bout the "couple's" break up. riz jolie was seen very depressed. and we were surprised to get this on our camera.

is she the third party that has successfully break the couple of the year relationship? when we approached the most gorgeous lady, she respond, "i hope she came back to her senses." who is the she, riz jolie referring to? april aniston? did april aniston the one who make this bruises on riz jolie's hand?

we update with the latest new on the next issue of GOSSIPS.
till then.

chiao.

late for skol

well...been slacking since the break of dawn
woke up at seven switch on my lappie n just tuning to the songs.
i shld b in skol alrdy.
but no, here i am blogging at my comfort territory - my room.

will b dressing up soon.

been caught up with all the songs tht i hv forgotten bout the time.

and yes, sis was right.
when u are angry, u say the most stupidest things ever.

its just another day tht u hope will b a better one.

fuck up the weather - shruthi
cheer up to all. n when i say all it includes me n you.
=)

chiao.

err....

to be honest i dunnoe how to start with my entry. err...
well mayb er... i talk bout yest.
went out for new year's shopping. with yani.
it was a pretty fun. yeah.

then at nite, while my bro n his boo went to hv their countdown at hard rock, i went down to the jetty. yea, u noe jetty where we go fishing. dun tell me u hv never went fishing before. oh gawd, are u an alien or something...?
anyway the fireworks was cool.
yea but i didnt get the chance to take pics of it...but ohwell.
n yea, i get the chance to watch saw 2 before 2006.
it was amazing. esp the last few scenes. it was all so unexpected man...
awesome gruesome movie.
n ya
i hv my movie of the for 2005.
lets start with the second runner up- to my disappointment (i realli want it to b the movie of the year, but it didnt make it ) HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE.

first runner up- to my amazement (i didnt realli expect the movie to b this great) KING KONG.

n the winner is- drum rolls..... never never NEVER guess tht it cld be the movie of the year for 2005 (im so lovin this movie, totally) THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA, THE LION, THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE.

=)

some unforseen things happen todae tht hv make my plan to go bowling cancelled. damn...

n yea to tht four sundals out there- dunia akhirat, aku tak akan maafkan apa yang korang dah buat. aku akan tuntut korang dlm akhirat. tht will be my promise. n i will keep it with me.
gawd...i hv never hate anyone like this before.

well, i gtg

chiao.

2006

goodbye 2005. a year full of laughter, sadnest, joy and blah blah...

oh well, 2005 was a year full of adventure.
realli.
alot of things happen.
alot of things i learn.
hell lot.

this 2006, for sure thing i wont wanna see things in the same way. cos i realli REALLI wanna grow up.
er..ok mayb not.mayb, i just wanna be a'lil more mature. sound better???
cos as ALL OF YOU KNOW, in exactly one month from todae onwards, im gonna be the 18 years old rocking chick.
gawd, im gonna BE tht OLD. cant imagine myself with all the wrinkles..
damn it...

well well, talking bout 2006, i look back to 2005- a few hours ago it WAS 2005 mind u.
i realised i cant be any closer to some of the things tht make my brains think abt it before i reached the year 2006.
mayb u guys dun realli get wat i mean. its ok. =)

2005, a year tht i started to live my life without my last n only nanny tht im left with after my the rest of them rest in peace, peacefully. the only thing tht i regret not telling her is tht how much i love her. n ya, i realli do. n now, everytime i look at my pink walls, i get reminded of my late nanny. using the cash she gave me for the last time before she close her eyes, i paint my room using tht it.

2005, a year i started anew with the things i do. new skol, new frens, new subjects, new ....er ... .. etc etc..
it is definitely a year tht i wont forget as it is a year im taking my diplm in somethin tht i am realli passion about - mass comm.
n yea, my klassmates are a bunch of diff species of monkeys. tht is why we cant be u noe, like 3e2 or 4e2... one for all, all for one. ohwell, tht is oh-so-sec-skol la..

2005, is a year tht i met with new ppl. n how much i LOVE them. cross my hart. they are the one who teach me new things every single sec, every single min i spent with them. oh gawd, im so in love with u guys. n i love my queens too. i still cant believe how is life without ALL of u in my life.... thanks for tolerating me for a year. I LOVE YOU YOU GUYS...
muacks.
i will try to be under ur bed every nite. =)

2005. alrite, heres a confession.
i dunnoe why im doin this but hey, its the new year. i got to start it with a confession. so here is it.
i fell in love.
oh yea, u heard me.
i fell in love.
n i am still in love.
with who? gawd knows....
u dun expect me to tell u, rite???
n well, im not expecting anything.
cos..i dun wanna break anyones hart n mine too.
=)

ohwell, tht is for now.
kinda slpy..

will talk more laters

for now,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

chiao