before i leave

well, here i am chasing after time before everything gonna change.

i just wanna say... i love u guys.



i really do.



im soo gonna miss u all.



take care...

alrite

it was such a finneee day for me.
the ppl tht surrounds me make me smile the wholeeee day. the weather was the best. it was pouring. its time to get wet. its been a verrryyy long time u know.

i wanna thank cupcake aka porg tofu but best known as APRIL, for the handmade bag and one of her books. thanks girl. not only cos of all these but also for being the fren.

how can i EVER find another cupcake when i have you..?
how can i EVER find another tofu when u are the only one who bully me?

=)

and of cost to my hoogaz, thanks for catchin my fall.

~

was caught in the pouring rain. such a lovely moment.
but it was washed away the moment my foot step a plc call home sweet home.
till now, she have not stop a sec to catch her breathe.
leave me alone in my comfort zone before i go, is that really hard for u?
it kills u to see me in a bright mood huh?
are u happy to see me torn inside out?

no, i dont hate u.
i just want u to ...
its ok..

i still love u.
and i will always do.
=)

i dunneo

seriously. im soo drained out. i dunnoe wat to do or wat to think. and its killing me inside.

no, i can go thru this without any tearss..really i can.
just.. dont say anything. dont ask me anything.
really.


chiao

breakin the news.. breakin ur heart

how hard is it to tell something tht u know for sure it will somehow break some ppls heart? how difficult is it to let the words fall from the mouth...

if it was given a choice, i think i would rather poison myself than to tell anything at all to anyone.

life is always playin a cruel joke on ppl.
Tell me
Have you ever been in a
Situation where the
Best thing you could do
Was the hardest thing
You've ever done
But you try to do
What's right
And I know deep down inside
That I really wanna be
There by your side
But I can't stand to see you cry
Not when it's because of me


i got something from someone.
not just any other soft toy.
not just any whale u find in the rack.
its something that have alrdy been part of someones life.

oh baby..

for you queens and hoogaz

Will you still be by my side even if I have my back on you?
Will you save me from drowning even if you cant swim the ocean?
Will you catch my fall even when Im at the peak of a mountain?
Will you still dry my tears even when I let you down, again?

What is in me that deserve an angel like you?
What is in me that makes you miss me?
What is in me that you declare me as the milk?
What is in me that every time I make you smile,
The whole world is smiling with you?

Why do you have to become part of me?
Why do you hold me when the world is against me?
Why must you let me be reliant on you?
Why do you make me love you more whenever we hug?

There will be time that I let you down
Make you feel pain and let you fall
But if I can just tell you how I really feel
Then I will ask the stars to listen to me
Cos I want the world to know
let the whole universe know

How important you are to me.
How life is impossible without you.
How lucky I am that god send me you.
How wonderful it is when you’re next to me.

~ i dedicate this to my Queens and my hoogaz.

i hope for a better day

the food sucks.
the games are lame.

but wat really matter was the fun i have with my hoogaz. they were just the amazing people u will ever met in ur life.

im lost in words actually.
especially wat happen last nite on the phone.
seriously.

words cant describe how beautiful u guys are.
and im no good with it so yea.

but wat i really wanna say is tht...
i love u guys.

=)

bloomy blooom

so here i am facing badz and shangz in the study room. and no, no PROJECTS. we are having some talking bout life during sec skol life.

it was kinda great to hear how my cool nerd was getting into some shits and stuff like tht. badz was never a discipline prob kid.

oh im feelin kinda emo now cos all the songs playing in itunes. lalalalaa..

gonna blog again after i get my full attention.

leaving without goodbye

have u imagine urself rushing out of the class without any absolute reason?

i just did.
and only God knows why

not a very good dayy

it started off pretty fine. my morn was a fine one.
but the sky starts to turn grey when i lost my kiddy.

oh shit, lets not talk bout it, its makin me feel worse.
so we stayed back for prjts. badz too.

actually there is nothing much to blog about. im bloggin for the sake of blogging.
nd i feel tht today, shldnt even come.
too many mistakes make,
too many heart breaks.

ok i know im just exaggerating bout tht facts.

but the thing is, oh fuck.

i just went offline without even feeling a lil guiltness not saying goodbye at all. im THAT tense. THAT TENSE.


Give me back my point of view Cause I just cant think for you

=) im pretty emo now

Instructions:
-Take a look at your friends,then list up to 10 things you want to say to 10 different friends.
-DO NOT state who these people are.
-DO NOT confirm or deny any comment speculation.
-Then tag five 5 people

there will be some tht im gonne write in grps. so yea. sorry for tht.

#1 you are my angel yesterday and will still be my angel. i believe in that. and we shld talk on the phone till the dawn breaks again? but when will that be?!

2# 8 years gone but ure the same beech i remember and love. and i know that u hv not change ur disgusting habits and last nite just prove it all. =)

#3 when was the last time i got the chance to hug you? for gawd sake the last time i saw u was on my bdae!! thts ages ago sweety. and i know u wont be able to read this but i wanna say i love u beauty. and also.. my sis who i cant more describe. so anyone who wanna bully me, u got to cross her first. shes a CID for gawd sake. in another ... 3 more years? hahah

4# just love to annoys me whenever i try to pay attention in class. i hv once thot of sitting next to someone else, but tht will make her a loner. haha ok la.. its just tht im so used to her by my side.

#5 i miss my cheessssy cakey. what more can i say? and i will write a poem for u k?

6# the wannabe ugly stepsisters. u make me realise tht not all mly girls are minahs with no brains. hahah.. for sure i hv brains kk

#7 u probably the oldest in the hoogaz but tht will not stop the kid in u to be seen. and yea, i still remember tht i owe u a badminton match. and also to the beech who steal my willy, i hate you.

8# couple of the year. one is my buddy and the other is my squirrel. thanks for being part of me.

#9 we will meet up soon. i promise ok beech?

10# wat more can i say? i miss ur boobies la. er i mean i miss u. and bout ur phone sex experiences, dont worry im still working out on how to get ur parents know bout it. and ya i almost forget, thanks for being my fren.

so taggie taggie to sis khai, weird fahm, shruty shruts, lina jealous me and missy nurul. enjoy.

i need to blog. but mayb not todae.

EMO man..